It was a few weeks before I left my corporate job. I was on the phone to the woman who had gotten me the job. She was a mentor, a supporter, a guide, a friend.
“Whatchya gonna do while you’re travelling?”, she asked.
“I dunno.” I said. And then on a whim, “I kinda wanna write a book.”
“A book!? No one writes books anymore. A blog! You gotta write a blog!”
And because she was my mentor, supporter, guide, and friend, I took what she said to heart and started a blog.
And while that blog got me writing and I’m so glad I did, I look back and wonder, what if? What if I hadn’t dumped that ‘kinda wanna’ so quickly?
A year later, I started coaching, and did the usual thing. I looked around to see what everyone else was doing… Blogging, Facebooking, Tweeting (this was pre-Instagram), and jumped onboard with every single one of them.
Nine years later, countless words strung into sentences, and sentences into paragraphs. Lots of writing. Lots of doing. But the ‘kinda wanna’, still haunting, because I never wrote a book.
So now I am. Committed. To that Desire. To write. A book.
Committed to fill the shape I am and stop squeezing into a shape I’m not.
It’s how I found my way here, to Substack. Blogging, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram; they never felt like home.
And now it’s time to belong to a place and make it a home.
This is my invite for you.
Belong to your kinda wanna.
Belong to your desire to ______.
Belong to the doing of it.
Belong to a place that has room for doing it.
Belong to a shape that has room for all of you.
Let yourself fill that shape.
See if it feels like home.
And if it does? Double-down on it.
PS Double-down feeling risky? You’re in the right place. Say hello again to your badassery. :)
I coach, mentor, and guide individuals to get on board with their bodies as they grow their badassery, so they don’t stress out or burn out as they turn up the volume of their voice. Interested?